so far, my life have been a real roller coaster. there were many ups and downs. believe it or not, i’ve been struggling really hard deep within myself. not even my closest friends now much about it. because yeah, i’m not the kind of guy that brags much about this sorta things…

i went to bali on the 5th of January. i got back yesterday. surely there’ll be much to talk about. but i’ll do that later. not in the mood. hha

i just lost my football match again. it was against the patra team. we played well in the first half. we dominated the game. but somehow, i’m not really sure how it happened. the second half went pretty bad. we conceded two goals. truthfully it was much more of a fluke to the patras. but well. all is lost.. damn.. we have to win the next match in order to qualify for the knockout phase…

i also feel terribly sorry to my friends, because i could not show up at the futsal match. i was still on my way to bandung, in the minibus. the team starters could not come as well. arif was still at padang. ibnu was sick, diarrhea. hanung had a big lump on his feet. only eight were present. and they were not that good… (sorry to say that).. my friends were quite pissed at us. but well, what can i say. it’s a family holiday that could not be put off that easily.

damn shit. i’ve been wondering when will i be able to hold the champion’s trophy. truthfully, our team is great. maybe it’s even excellent. but somehow, losing has always been a part of us.. shit..